I want to...

I want to going out from my world
the world that created by me since long time ago

I
I want to going out from everything
everything that make me trouble in my life
since long time ago

I
I want to going out from my bad
and draw everything good
for my future

I
I want to make my self understand clearly
that everything that pass
is already pass
like something that already pass away - will not come
will not come - eternally

I
I want to make my self understand
that my life is for my future
not for my pass

me !
I want to make my self understand clearly (again)
that everything that pass
is already pass
like something that already pass away- will not come
will not come - eternally

I
I want to calm my feeling
and make my heart beating normally
such nothing happened

I
I want to be someone good
and draw everything good for my future
and (again ) I want to make my self understand clearly
that everything that pass
is already pass
like something that already pass away- will not come
will not come - eternally

And I (again)
I want to going out from my world
the world that created by me since long time ago


What I have done to get everything that I want?
do I TRY my best to get these?

stop !
-Try and Try and Try !!!-

O ALLAH HELP ME
GIME THE STRENGT TO DO THAT