Wednesday, October 29, 2014

The garbage, Rotten egg and THE RESPONSIBILITY


As we growing up, we will go through many types of problems either it is about the conflict within our own self or with the other person.

Today, something happened to me. something that makes me feel that, i should pure my attention of doing something. So the story today is all about the  commitment or the responsibility and trust.  As human, sometimes we tend to forget and neglect the responsibilities entrusted upon us, so is imperative to supervise and remind each other

In my life, I always take care about the commitment when someone giving me trust to do so. so, in our rent house (I am not stay at hostel this semester so that I am staying with my friends at a rent house for student) , the leader of this house already created the schedule for us to clean our house everyday such as to clear the garbage, swept the house and clean up the toilet. everyone in our house will do those task in partner (there are 12 members in our house) .My partner and I got the turn to do those task every Tuesday....but......

..but yesterday I didn't do the task to throw the garbage from our kitchen even though the big garbage can (for all student in this neighborhood) just placed infront of our house because I saw the person who should throw that garbage yesterday did not perform her task so that there's already so much garbage inside the dustbin in our kitchen  at that time, so I just think that..Erm..someone will throw that garbages tomorrow (it will be today) so when the today is coming no one clean up that gabbage and then our house leader (err...ketua rumah??) came to me and asked me... 

"kak aisyah..did you clean the garbage yesterday?" and I just shook my head and said "nope" without feeling guilty (dalam hati - sebab org hari tu pun tak buang. org hari ni pun tak buang) .. huhu..And she said "ok..then please do it later"

After a few minutes, I go to wear my skirt and put my hijab on my head then go to kitchen to take the dustbin and sigh~so much garbage in the dustbin and it smell worst..ewww.. I see the "telur busuk" also.  At that time I just feel unsatisfied and keep asking why did the person who should bring this garbage out of this house today didn't do her task? Why should I do this..the dustbin already full garbage for three days..and then angryly I took the garbage out from the dustbin (with the plastic) and bring in outside but.............. while I took that garbage bag (I did not bring the garbage with the dustbin), I see the rotten egg already flow out from the plastic and then its spread its "lendir" along my way to the outside of the house and the immadiately the bad smeel spread around the house.. .


I forget to tell that our rent house is in the second floor so when we want to clean the garbage, we must bring the garbage down the house, and of course we are using when the "lendir of telur busuk" flow out from the garbage bag, it also dirty the stairs ..wuwuwu. T_T~

so that, this evening, I have to clean the stairs and the kitchen also instead of just clean up the garbage. for the stairs, I have to clean it with detergant and softener to make it smeel good..wuwuwuu again T_T~ indeed..the smeel of  rotten egg or "telur busuk" is sooo bad and worstttt T_T~


From my story above, I want to share that, whenever you get a  Responsibility to do something, you MUST do that. Do with a good intention (because of Allah ) and when someone don't do their responsibility to finish their task, then remind them! Instead of blaming them for not doing the task, PLEASE Remind them to do so and do not follow that bad manner (not doing the responsibility)

In Quran Allah said..

“Whosoever does righteous good deed, it is for (the benefit of) his ownself; and whosoever does evil, it is against his ownself. And your Lord is not at all unjust to (His) slaves”
[Fussilat 41:46]

“And fulfil (every) covenant. Verily! The covenant, will be questioned about. ” 
Surat Al-Israa, Verse 34)


So, that is my story and sharing tonight, next I will update my blog as much as I can .. hehe

so, here  I want to share the difference of these three word with same meaning~

garbage , trash , rubbish = sampah(In malay)

garbage = the sampah2 from Kitchen = North Amerika English

Trash = The sampah2 such as paper, packaging = North Amerika English

Rubbish = British English

Sunday, October 26, 2014

when my heart talking


Just want to share my thought this night. Wanna share my heart's feeling. what I feel. what inside my heart. sometime, talking to someone isn't enough, sometimes all you need is to write what you feel but is doesn't mean that you forget to tell Allah about all your feelings.

In my life, theres so many things that I want but I am not get it. It is true that I feel hurt. ..SO HURT but I know that Allah will give me the best. Quraan said in Al Baqarah 2: 216 ".... perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not." ya, I keep repeating this word wherenever I feel sad and down. I know that everything that Allah gave me is the best for me even though thats a thing that I don't like.

It has been 6 month since I broke up with forbidden love. I call it forbidden relationship because he is not my husband yet. In Islam the only relationship that valid is marriage, you're my husband, and i'm you wife . But in this case, we are not married yet even though we were plan to get married but who are we to get angry or to not feeling unsatisfied when Allah does not give what I want.. indeed, this is the best for me..thank you Allah. I am sure that someday, I will get someone better to hold my hand to YOUR Jannah , to marry me because of Allah and accept me for who I am, not for who I was or what I will become.

All I can do and must do right now is, building up myself, be a better me and accept the thing that I can't change. everything will be fine insha Allah ..

Even though it was hurt to accept and to remember, but now, I feel better Alhamdulillah even though I still remember him everyday. How pathetic I am whenever I miss him but he seems dont miss me anymore. so I put all my pieces in Allah's hand, knowing that HE will give me someone better someday. There's so many things in my life that can make me happy instead of just thinking about family, my friend, my ambition, my dreams... so why should I over thing something that can makes me sad right? so start from now, I must learn to forget him forever, start a new beginning and accept everything that will come to me...

dear Allah, thank you for everything... Alhamdulillah..

SUNDAH - 26/10 - 10.45 PM 

Sunday, August 3, 2014

When a test comes to you

When a test comes to you:
1. Know that everything is by Qadr of Allah
2. Remember that other people have bigger problems than you.
3. Remember the death of the Prophet Sallallahu Alayhi Wasallam; the greatest calamity the Ummah faced.
4. Maybe through this trial, Allah has saved you from an even bigger trial.
5. Through this trial Allah will remove some of your sins.
6. Through this trial Allah has opened up a huge world of ibadah like sabr, salah, repentance, and more.
7. With this trial, Allah is putting you on the path of the Prophets. It is a confirmation that Allah loves you. The more Allah loves somebody, the more he tests them.


Friday, June 13, 2014

What I really want in my life #00

What I really want in my life

With the name of Allah, The Most Beneficent and The Most Merciful..

What I really want in my life? sometimes, I don't know what I really want.. currenly I am studying on my degree. before start to apply for this, I feels like I really want to continue my study after diploma but when I enter this University, seems like I lost all of my desire to study

I'm so tired of my life here. sometimes, I feel so lazy to study, to make some revision and I even not study much for my final examination even if I have  so much time to do so..

hmm.. what I really want actually..

really need some inspiration and motivation ~_~

Tuesday, June 10, 2014


with the name of Allah, The Most Beneficent and The Most Merciful

It's been a long time since I write something in English on my blog . Actually I want to write everyday but I don't know what to write, I have no idea but now I decided to write something everyday or at least every week because I want to improve my writing skill on English.. huhu

Today, 11 jun .. my final examination for this semester was start 2 days before. my first paper was Statistics (9 jun) and the next one is Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asia, TITAS (today)...

yesterday, something terrible was done to me. you know what? erm..for me, it was something shameful to tell..cause It's all about my English~~ huhu.. I have learnt english since in kindergarten..same like you too, rite.. but until now , I feel that I still not good enough in English. I love to learn language including English but now I found that my English became worst and know why I'm saying that?yeah..because yesterday, I just know that I just got C- for my Academic English Course for this semeter! :(

oh~~~ feeling worst.. before this, my English not so bad (I think laa hehe) because I love English and other Bahasa course and when I was in Diploma level, I always get A for this subject and I think that it easier to me to speak and do my presentation in English..but now, even though the thing (English) that I learn in diploma and In degree level is quite same but I feel that I became weak and worst in this subject.. :( to improve my english :(

Monday, May 26, 2014

stay strong... everything will be fine



semakin meningkat dewasa, semakin banyak cabaran dan dugaan yang "terpaksa" kita hadapi dalam hidup ini.. dan pada setiap cabaran dan dugaan tu akan menguji sejauh mana kekuatan hati kita..

Allah uji sebab kita mampu untuk menghadapinya
Allah uji sebab Allah sayang
Allah uji sebab Allah nak kita bertambah matang mengharungi hidup ini.

sejak aku sambung belajar ke peringkat degree ni, semakin banyak la dugaan dan cabaran..aku tahu semua ini untuk menguji kekuatan hati aku juga..Allah nak aku perbaiki diri.. mungkin sebelum ni banyak sangat buat dosa sampai kena uji dengan pelbagai dugaan... mungkin Allah nak aku jadi someone yang lebih baik lagi.. sebab tu Allah uji dengan pelbagai dugaan..

dulu masa semester 1 kat sini, semuanya ok..belajar pun semangat ja.. tapi bila dah masuk semester 2 ni, semakin banyak cabarannya..subjek pun semakin susah..kelas pun banyak yang ponteng sebab masalah yang entah apaper.. smuanya atas diri sendiri saja..

dan baru2 ni , permohonan aku utk tinggal asrama pada tahun ke2 pengajian nanti ditolak... ditolak..huuuuu... nak buat macaam manaa...dahlah asrama aku tak dapat, umah sewa pun tak ada lagi..
jadi sekarang baru nak mencari..

tarik nafas, hembus...
tarik nafas, hembus...

sabar aisya,sabar...
telah banyak yang engkau lalui kan..
jadi janganlah berputus asa...
Allah nak engkau menjadi lebih baik
Allah nak kuatkan lagi jiwa engkau
Allah nak engkau muhasabah lagi diri kau
be a better muslimah
be a better you
perbaikilah diri
insha Allah everything will be fine

walaupun terpaksa berpisah dengan kawan sebab tak dapat asrama
insha Allah segalanya akan indah juga pada waktunya
insha Allah sedikit masa nanti engkau akan dapat umah sewa punya
walaupun dengan kwan2 lain..heee..

bukan engkau tak pernah lalui situai "tak best" seperti ini...
pernah saja kan/?
tapi insha Allah engkau mampu menghadapinya...

Always bersangka baik dengan Allah ya aisyah..
insha Allah..segalanya akan baik2 saja...
everything will be fine
everthing will be fine
everything will be fine..


Allah uji sebab Allah sayang :)

be strong!!


Sunday, May 25, 2014

Jiwa keletihan


aku rasa, aku ni tak habis-habis dengan jiwa keletihan aku
jiwa letih, hati letih, fikiran letih..maka anggota fizikal pun turut terasa letihnya

aku ada satu sifat dimana pabila aku tiada mood nak bercakap dengan sesiapa, aku akan diam saja. diam dan buat hal aku sendiri. aku dengan dunia aku saja. dan aku bahagia seperti itu.

namun ada pula manusia-manusia yg salah faham sampai fikir aku sedang marah or bad mood. hmm..tolonglah. selalu fikir yang bukan-bukan sampai aku yg tak rasa apa-apa boleh jadi bad mood pulak lahaii..

blog ni, dah lama sangat tak update
hilang suda semangat yang ada dulu
macam mana yg keep writing everyday..everyweek or every month ka..yg konsisten menulis blog.. hmm..bagi aku manusia2 yg mcam tu, mereka mempunyai hidup yg "happy sokmo"..interesting.. banyak benda menarik yang mereka boleh kongsikan..tak hairanlah boleh update selalu.. mereka gembira, orang lain pon gumbira juga..

sedangkan hidup aku ni tak sehebat hidup mereka..tak da benda yang menarik utk dikongsikan selalu..yang ada hanya cerita tak best yang aku sendiri pun sudah keletihan.

letih dengan hidup sendiri
letih dengan segala-galanya

tapi takpalah..everything will be fine fine fine fineeee

segalanya akan indah pada waktunya....