Friday, November 20, 2009

This evening...One semester


This is a sad story of me...when someone that i know very well,even just for are bit time but it was made me sad

4.12 pm,a bit time friday,20 november 2008

me,kak fieza,kak nusaibah,rosni,nabihah,khamsiah and iza accompany ezati when waiting for her parents.she will go back to kedah and will not come here again.she will regester to study at the other college...

It was made us so sad...when she say "good bye..."a bit time ago...
my tears come out..immediately
and i saw kak fieza,iza, lovely roomate they also...
...cry with me...hehe

Ezati,hope you will get something better in anything that you do after that..indeed we all love you...UHIBBUKI FILLAH

That's a foods while celebrated the 'jamuan perpisahan' for ezati


what was i got here?
as a student...
as a daughter...
as a slave of Allah...

I got a new friends...
New experience...
New life...
and everything new in my life...
all of those cause me change...
a big change...
indeed,He was gave me the best for my life...

'eid celebration at medan taqafi,KTD

pck lee...driver bus of KTD

pck man...ex-driver bus of KTD

lecturer and student KTD


my roomate ...

my friends... week begin from 1.12.2009 we will take final examination and maybe that's my last post until break semester...
hm...break semester?i'm sure that i will be the 'penggosok baju yang setia' for my sister...hahaha
(I will stay with her and she will work for every day and i'm very very very very sure that i will bored stay alone at home)..haha

Saturday, November 14, 2009


When some of your teacher angry to you or make you stress, what do you feel? do you feel angry? sad, or hate. I am sure that you answer is yes but actually ,you should be happy when your teacher angry to you because it’s are sign that her still take care about you. why I’m saying like that? because, if she didn’t take care about you, she will not do anything that can cause you feel something.

Actually, what I’ve said recently is have a close relationship with the test that given by Allah Swt. In our daily life, we have many problem that sometimes we cannot solve it clearly. At this point, we will think that “why He give this test to me? did he hates me?”…my answer is no! because he will not hate anything that He was created, He is Ar Rahman and Ar Rahim. Indeed, everything that He given to us are sign of His love either that’s a test or enjoyable.

In Quran, Allah Swt was said

“Allah will not give the test to His slave outside of their ability”
(Al-Baqarah , 2 ; 284)

Here, we can understand that Allah Swt will not give any test to His slave outside of their ability and actually, all of the test that He gives to us is to escalate our stage inside beside Him and also to wipe out our smalls sin.

When we refer to the history of ulama’,we will found that they will feeling sad if Allah didn’t give them some of test because in their opinion, if Allah not give them some of test, that’s are sign that He was forget them. read this sentence clearly

“do you think that you will enter the heaven if you was not get the test like was given to the people before you?”
(Al-Baqarah. 2 ; 214 )

From this sentences, we can make the conclusion that we will not enter to the heaven that He promised to us if we never get the test from Him. The test that given by Him is not only comes in the worst thing such as destitution, sickness, and others but also it’s can come by something sick as the wealthy, pulchritude healthy and others. So, always take care about anything that He gives us because actually, all of that is the test to see how much our belief, our faith and our confidence toHim.

Now, when you get some of test that you think we cannot solve it, what should you do? cry? Wail? scream? Suicide? Or go out from Islam ? no ! don’t doing like that because if you do like that, it will not solve your problem but will enhance you problem in the next world and also will make a new problem to anyone around you. so, if you got some of test, you must


You should be patient in all the time even we know that it’s so difficult to be patient in all time but remember, all of the test that we got now is so not value compare to the tests that given by Allah swt to His lover, Muhammad Saw. Even Muhammad Saw is the messenger of Allah, he was got much of test that if its given to us, we will not able to solve it. so always think about this.


When you got some of test from Him, maybe it’s are sign that you was do something that can destroy your relationship with Him so, always pray with Him and ask His willing for our life.

“And when my slave asking to you ( Muhammad ) about me, indeed I’m very close. I give the request by someone that pray when they pray to me” (Al- Baqarah,2 ; 218 )

“And ask to Allah with patient and pray. Indeed, all of these are difficult except to anyone that focus”
(Al-Baqarah.2 ; 45)


After you are be patient and pray to Him, the other important thing that you must do is are confident.ypu must be confident in everything that you have asked to Him because if you do that, it’s are sign that you just put your hope to Him and also are sign that you always be a good thinking about Him

“… Remember, indeed the help of God is so close”
(Al-Baqarah,2 ; 214 )

We was know what should we do when we get some of test from Allah so now, change yourself and opinion about anything that you get from Him because maybe that’s a test from Him. We must remember that Allah knows everything about us.

“… If you hide anything in your heart of you represent it, Allah will know about it…”
(Ali Imran,3 ; 53 )


If you love Allah, He will love you too
And peoples also will love you and fine with you
If you hate Him, or feeling nothing about Him
You will not increase or decrease His power
He never need you
But actually you need Him in all the times
Islam also never need you
But actually you need Islam for your better life here, and there
If you chase the world
The next world will run far away from you
In contrast,
If you chase the next world
The world also will walk together beside you
Indeed ,
The world is nothing
But the next world is everything
Always keep yourself in mode zikrullah wa zikrulmaut
(remember Allah and remember about death in all time)
He know much about you
So make sure that you always try to know much about Him
You live here not just as an human
But also as a servant
And as a slave of Him
So that, always be aware
about your responsibility here
You live here is not just for now,
but also for later
not just for here
but also for there
not just your yourself
but also for the creator of yourself
Put Him in front in anything that you do !

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


Honestly,I didn't have a time to do this (create new post)... moreover the final examination is become so close...but when i remember that everyone have 24 hours per day,why should i think like that?


sometimes,i think that i didn't want to update my blog anymore but when i remember that this is not just an aSsingment but also the trust from Allah..(Amanah dari Allah)...

i'm never accept this as an assigment but i think that's a some field to spread something... so my purpose here to spread anything about the truth..about the reality of us as a a a mu'min...(even my post here is not so good)

Hope He accept anything that we do as an Ibadah...


My Rabb has commad me to do nine things : be sincere at all times,in my exterior and interior,overthly and inside,privately and public. observe justice in All agreeable or disagreeable times,in happiness and in anger take the middle path wherever i am very poor or exteremely wealthy forgive the person who opress me connect with the person who cut his relationship with me give to the one who does nit give me my conversation to be the zikr of Allah make my silence to be that contemplation and reflection make my glance to be an ibrah(taking lesson from what i see)

I must strive to attain such this character so that i can enjoin good and forbid evil effectively..


Saturday, October 24, 2009


when my heart talking...


do you ever think,how if tomorrow you die?are you sure that ALLAH will accept all of the kindliness that you have done?sometimes,you like to delay anything with some or no reason and the bad things that you like to do is delay your pray.


even you can delay anything that you want,but there's something that you cannot delay forever.that is a your death-YOUR DEATH

so now,do you ever thing,how if tomorrow you die?
when your soul was fly,how about your life in the grave worlds?
do you sure that ALLAH will accept you to enter to HIS heaven?
do you sure that HE will not put you into the hell?


seometimes,when you do some kindliness,you very sure that Allah will accept it
and now,please don't think like that anymore!
because,maybe HE not accept any kindliness that you have done even a bit...if you do something just because of anyhing except HIM


sometimes,if people said that you are fool,you will angry but actually
you not use all of your mind to think about HIM,to think about HIS love and o think about YOUR DEATH


sometimes,if people said that you are deaf,you will angry but actually,
you not use all of your hearing to heard the power of HIS power,about the heaven and the hell that he promised to us,the feebles creature...


sometimes,if people said that you are blind,you will angry but actually,
you not use all of your eyes to see the reality of life,to see your life in the the next world...

so now,myself...

how if tomorrow you die?
do you think that you can delay you death such as anything that you was delay before?
have you do your best while you do an obligation with HIM?
have you do anything in your life just because of HIM?
have you do anything in you life with the name of HIM?
do you aware about all of that?

death is do no delay...
your death is do no delay...
our death is do no delay...
even a half of second !

so myself...
always take care about you faith
keep HIS name in your heart anywhere...anytime
because you don't know,when are the time of you to die..

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


someone was born
from nothing to something

someone was chosen

to live there,

in this worldly world

someone have a
mind to think,

eyes to see,

ear to heard,
and heart to feel

since young,

someone learn much from her experience...
she see the world with her own perspective

someone always think that

she's not are perfect
and will not be perfect
because nothing is perfect
except Allah,our creator

someone always find something
and the something is the willing from her creator

someone always see the world is nothing
but the next world is everything

but sometimes,
someone will confused about the world...

something that we see is is good,

not surely good
and something that we see is bad,

not surely bad

so now...
how to live there?

Saturday, October 17, 2009

TO CHANGE-it's up to you


No one born in this world perfectly, no one live in this world perfectly, no one can do anything perfectly and no one better in anything. however, we must bring our self to make something perfectly especially in our relation with Allah Swt, our creator.

How to do that?

At this point, we know that we need to change our self, our attitude, our opinion and other to become perfect but the change is up to our self. why I am said like that? because no one can change our self except we change it by we own self. people just can advice us, or giving their opinion but the decision to change is up to we own self.

In islam, we have many change that occur to our self since we were in the soul world until we die. before we born, we start from nutfah and change to be an alaqoh before going to be a science,we change from zygote to the morula,from morula to blastocyst and from blastocyst to embryo.

After we born,we still change and alter from baby to the child,from child to the teenager,from teenager to adults and lastly we will going to be an old people before we are die and in the same times,the condition around us is also change.

In our life,we have many things that we never know,

We have many things that we never think,

We have many things that we never do,

And we also have many things that we never try to do.

If there’s a something that can give us benefit,

Can give us the reward from HIM,

Can give us the willing from HIM…

…We need to change our self know about it,

…….to think about it,

………to do it

……….and try to do it

All of that is need us to change our self,

And only our self can change it,

No one can do it for us…

No one can…

…no one can

….and once again,no one can…

…to change our self

If before you are someone lazy,

You must change yourself to be someone hard-working…

If before you never know much about Islam,

You must change yourself to know much about it

…..because it is your way of life

If before you never do some of sunnah Rasulullah.

You must change yourself to do that

……because it is can close your relationship with HIM and HIS Messenger


إِنَّ اللّهَ لاَ يُغَيِّرُ مَا بِقَوْمٍ حَتَّى يُغَيِّرُواْ مَا بِأَنْفُسِهِمْ

"...Verily, Allâh does not change the condition of a people until they (first) change their ways and their minds. ..."

( Ar-Ra’d, 13 ; 11 )



Everything that Allah gives you-accept it with full of your willing. Even sometimes, that is something that you don’t like, just accept it with full of your will…

…because why?

……because Allah loves you.He know what is the best for you more than you know about it.

وَهُوَ كُرْهٌ لَّكُمْ وَعَسَى أَن تَكْرَهُواْ شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَّكُمْ وَعَسَى أَن تُحِبُّواْ شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَّكُمْ وَاللّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنتُمْ لاَ تَعْلَمُونَ ﴿٢١٦﴾

"...though it is hard for you. But it may be that a thing is hard upon you though it is (really) good for you, and it may be that you love a thing while it is bad for you. Allâh knows (all things) while you do not know."

(Al Baqarah,2 ; 216 )

In our life,we just can plan something but Allah will decide it for us because HE always know what is the best for us.

In my life, I have many things that I was plan to do.I was plan to take a Syariah Course at other college but finally,He put me here in Science Computer-Multimedia course.something that I never think to do in my life but I just accept it and wait.wait for anything that He plan to me for my future even sometimes I feel so hard to stand in this field.

Here,he put me together with someone ‘hyperactive roommate’.first time I meet her,I can’t accept her because of her attitude.she’s not bad but her attitude is like an hyperactive children.someday, I think hardly,why Allah choose me to stay here,in my room,with hyperactive roommate?

I find He sign of love in Quran and I found something in Surah AL-Mu’minun, 23 ; 115

أَفَحَسِبْتُمْ أَنَّمَا خَلَقْنَاكُمْ عَبَثًا

"`Did you then think that We had created you without purpose..."

Here I think,Allah will not create anything without any aim,without any purpose and without any reason. Everything that He create is have their own advantage,have their own reason and that’s also same like my hyperactive roomate.Allah was create her,put her together with me in the same room with some reason and some purpose that I am never feel and see right now but I am sure that one fine day later,I will know about it.

Every day,I try to close myself with her. I try to understand her and finally I found something. She have a pure in heart and she have a big sensitivity about day, I got some advice from her

“Aisyah,don’t you say something that you never do because it is can broke your relationship with Him and can give you the sin”

Thanks Allah,you was give me someone that can remind me about it.

Here,I also made with new friend ; samirah,afiqah and day,I think that why Allah choose them asa my friend here?first,because they is my classmate.second. I think Allah want they to be something that can improve myself.

One day,I was got a negative comment from them…

Samirah :

“you is so shceme”

“sometimes you want us to follow what that you want”

Afiqah :

“you are seldom to smile”

“you like to invite me study when I am don’t have any mood to study.huhu”

Mardhiah :

“sometimes,you like shceme”

I accept all of their comment and I change it to I shceme?oh no!...if I am shceme since in my primary school,maybe I will not here. I just change my self to be someone like shceme(because I don’t want to continue my bad attitude in my primary school-we need to change,right*)…

everyday, I will invite them to coming to the class before lecturer coming and I also always invite them to be the first in everything.samirah says that sometimes I want them follow anything that I want but actually I just give my opinion and all of that is up to them either they want to accept or not.

Afiqah says that I am seldom to smile.hahaha…so funny.InsyaAllah I will change it ( but should we smile along the time?should we smile to the guy?that not our mahram?*let’s think about it)

In our life,we need to think about anything done around us and we need to change to be better than now.we need to remember that Allah will not do something for nothing. Everything that He do for us,for our life,and for anything around us is have their own purpose and their own reason.

Once again remember,Allah know ourself more than we know about our self.He always know which one is better for fact,He is so close to us so,TRY TO KNOW MUCH ABOUT HIM


*so,thinking hardly about it*

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

talking about L O V E

Before I write this issue,I hope Allah will help me to practice what do I will write here.I think,I still a very young to discuss about this issue but because of this issue,I found much of people around me was broken.I hope He will help me to be the real muslimah,not ony the someone that can say something but didn’t do it.I am always remember that Allah was said at Quran

يأَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ لِمَ تَقُولُونَ مَا لاَ تَفْ

oh you who believe! Why do you say that which you do not do)

(As Saff, 61 :3)

If they busy to find a love

Let us to find the faith…

If they busy to find a couple,

Let us busy to find god’s willing…

If they cry because frust after break up,

Let us cry because remember all of we sin to Him…

If they love the humanity,

Let us to love Allah,the our creator…

When we talking about love,what are you thinking in your mind?I am sure that much of you will give a smile.that’s true,who don’t like the love?in understanding much of people,love is the relation between man and women that cause much of blissful in their heart but do you know ,that is not the real meaning of the love.

Love in its real meaning is are some feeling from someone to something that demand someone to sacrifice their self to something that their love to.IN ISLAM,the true love is only the love that lean to the our creator,Allah Swt.

When we ask to any couple(that in love before married),even they know that the couple is forbidden in islam,they will say

“erm..he will marry me later,so there’s nothing if we are couple right now..”

“you not feel the blissful feeling of love right know.if you feel it,I am sure that you will do more than me”

“we don’t do anything bad…just the usually thing that any couple do,touch,kiss,hug…theres wrong?or you jealous?”

Theres are some example of answer that given by any couple that I have been asked.when we think about it,why are the couple very sure that their love will continue until they get married? Who can ensure that they will together forever?why are they always think that their love will everlasting into the heaven?who can ensure that?they are thinking like they don’t have Allah as an our observer.on our surrounding,we saw much of couple divorce after 4 or 5 years of marriage and when we ask,they will say that

“we don’t have any understanding anymore”

“I am so boring with her.she always…”

“ comment…”

Why are much of couple is very blissful and like very understanding each other before thay get married divorce after they married?are the reason of them is true?thats only on their opinion because actually,the big reason that cause the marriage is broken is in love before get married.why I am said like that?let us to understand the explanation above.

In Quran,Allah Swt was said

الْخَبِيثَـتُ لِلْخَبِيثِينَ وَالْخَبِيثُونَ لِلْخَبِيثَـتِ وَالطَّيِّبَـتُ لِلطَّيِّبِينَ وَالطَّيِّبُونَ لِلْطَّيِّبَـتِ أُوْلَـئِكَ مُبَرَّءُونَ مِمَّا يَقُولُونَ لَهُم مَّغْفِرَةٌ وَرِزْقٌ كَرِي
(An Nur,24 : 26. Bad statements are for bad people and bad people for bad statements. Good statements are for good people and good people for good statements.

In sentence above,we can understand that the good women is for the good man and the god man is for the good,why are we still worried if we don’t get the very good couple?if we want to get the very good couple,we must be the good women/man with improve our relation between Allah and human first,not with find the forbidden couple.

(وَخَلَقْنَاكُمْ أَزْوَاجًا ﴿٨

And (have We not) created you in pairs, (An Naba', 78 :8)

سُبْحَانَ الَّذِي خَلَقَ الْأَزْوَاجَ كُلَّهَا مِمَّا تُنبِتُ
الْأَرْضُ وَمِنْ أَنفُسِهِمْ وَمِمَّا لَا يَعْلَمُونَ ﴿٣٦﴾

Glory to Allah, Who created in pairs all things that the earth produces, as well as their own (human) kind and (other) things of which they have no knowledge. (yasiin, 36 :36)

From the both sentences above,we can proof that anything in this world is have their own couple.the night is couple with daytime,black is couple with white and man is couple with women.although we are know about it,we can’t do anything to find our couple with we own way because we still have Allah as we creator,as we observer.In Islam,our purpose only can’t allow we to do something without lean to Him.

Allah was said in Quran,

قُلْ لِّلْمُؤْمِنِينَ يَغُضُّواْ مِنْ أَبْصَـرِهِمْ وَيَحْفَظُواْ فُرُوجَهُمْ ذلِكَ أَزْكَى لَهُمْ إِنَّ اللَّهَ خَبِيرٌ بِمَا يَصْنَعُونَ

(An Nur,24 : 30. Tell the believing men to lower their gaze, and protect their private parts. That is purer for them. Verily, Allah is All-Aware of what they do.)

In this sentences,Allah was command man to take care about their eyesight from see anything that forbidden include to see the women who not their mahram(someone that we can marry) and compulsory tu us to take care about our passion.This command is not only given for man but also given for women.the continue sentences in the same surah,Allah was said
...وَقُل لِّلْمُؤْمِنَـتِ يَغْضُضْنَ مِنْ أَبْصَـرِهِنَّ
(An Nur,24 : 31. And tell the believing women to lower their gaze…)

Both of sentences above is present to us clearly that Allah forbid man and women who is not mahram to see each other without anything important but just for enjoyable purpose and to satisfied their passion only.the hard dalil from Him that forbid us from couple is.

وَلاَ تَقْرَبُواْ الزِّنَى إِنَّهُ كَانَ فَاحِشَةً وَسَاء سَبِيلاً﴿٣٢﴾

Nor come nigh to adultery: for it is a shameful (deed) and an evil, opening the road (to other evils) (Al Israa,17 ; 32 )

When we see,Allah used the words wa laa taqrobuu(and don’t you close your self) not the words wa laa ta’maluu(and don’t you do) so,we can understand here that even we just near the adultery thing like couple,it was be illicit.For example,the distance from us to the hall is about 50 meter and when we walk in one stride to the hall,our distance now is 49.8 meter,theres is we said to draw near the,in love before get married is a something that illicit and hate by Allah Swt.

From Abu Hurairah,he said that Rasulullah Saw was said:

“Allah Swt was put the chance for the son of Adam about an adultery.theres not possible that they have done the adultery.the adultery of eye is showing,the adultery of tounge is the words that we said.the adultery of the heart is the needed for something and sex while the adultery of faraj is just follow or not followed”

Clearly,Rasullullah explain clearly to us obout the parts of an adulter.when we see someone who not our mahram,the adultery of eye is done.when we said something that sweet and not follow the rule of islam,the adultery of tounge is done.when we heard and feel the our lovers voices,the adultery of ear is done.when we touch the hand of our lover and walk together before get married,the adultery of hand and leg is done but the most dangerous is,when we thinking about her/him,the adultery of heart is done.the adultery of heart is the most dangerous because,sometimes we are not aware when the time we do that.there’s impossible if some love relation not included the eyesight,talking,hearing and feeling.clearly,we understand that in love before get married is forbidden and illicit but why some of us still do it?

For anyone who not do it anymore,don’t start youself to do that.there’s hard to leave the sin when you feel these enjoyable.don’t wait until you are going beyond a set limit and hard to you leave it anymore.for anyone that still in love or was start it recently,please leave it because there’s no advantage if you do something that hates by Allah Swt.there’s no advantage if you just find your blissful for this world only because we still have the another world that infinite.there’s only one way to allow the relation between man and women,that is the marriage.

For the loving couple that is very serious right now,remember that the more sweet your relation before you get married,you will find nothing in you relation after you get married.

Now,think it hardly,how to get a family that blissful and gat the willing from Allah Swt if it’s basic is full of the sin and not follow the rule that create by Him.maybe we think that something that we do is good in we opinion but actually,it is only the way from an evil to make we confused to choose the good way to do something in our life.there’s no wrong for man and women talking but with the important things only like to do the discussion and others but if there’s nothing important,better don’t do it because it can draw ourself near the adultery.

If you want to get the blissful in this world nad in the next world,you must make sure that everything that you do is lean to Allah the cases to find the love and couple,always pray to Allah to get the best couple for you.

وَاسْتَعِينُواْ بِالصَّبْرِ وَالصَّلاَةِ وَإِنَّهَا لَكَبِيرَةٌ إِلاَّ عَلَى الْخَاشِعِينَ ﴿٤٥﴾

Nay, seek (Allah's) help with patient perseverance and prayer: It is indeed hard, except to those who bring a lowly spirit
(Al Baqarah,2 ; 45)

My beloved friend,please find you lover refers to their faith to Allah Swt,when you think that you fall in love to someone,find your decision refers to sign from Allah with pray Istikharah.

Don’t love someone just because of their status,beauty or anything but love you lovers just because of Allah Swt and because of their relation with Him because our life in this world will be end and we also have an everlasting world after we die.

Pray of Rasulullah Swt :

“Oh Allah,let me to be someone that love you,to love someone that love you and to love anything that can close mylove with you…”


Saturday, September 26, 2009


Hari Raya comes again.Muslimin and Muslimah celebrate it with enjoyable and grateful to Allah Swt after finish one mont of this year,i am celebrate Hari Raya at my cousin's house,not like the others year,i am ccelebrate it with my parents,family and friends at my own village.

19 september 2009,friday-shahidah and i go to Butteworth by bus at 9.00 am and arrive there at 4.00 pm. there,my sister,my cousin and her husband waiting for us.from there,we are going to the their house at Kulim,Kedah-1 and half hour from butteworth.there,shahidah and i meet with my cousin's sons at the first time.Mohamad Ahnaf Taqiudin(Udin)-11,Mohamad Ahnaf Tarmizi(Izi)-10 and Mohamad Ahnaf Taufiq(Opik)-8. they is a very sweet nephew.

First day Hari Raya,i woke up from my bed after heard the crying voices from my sister.she calling our mother and crying.i am laugh because i don't have not any feeling to cry even now is Hari Raya.After pray Subuh,i iron all the Baju Raya of anyone on this house.usually,in the others year of Hari Raya,i will iron all the Baju Raya of my parents and sibling at malam takbir but i am feel so tired last night so that,i just do my usual work at morning Hari Raya.After pray Hari Raya,we visited my cousin's husband family at the same village.i am feel so happy because i am not ever feel the condition living in the sabah,i am not stay at village so that i don't know the best feeling living at the place like that.

second Hari Raya,we visited the Assistant Manager of my cousin at Kg.Bukit Meriam,Sungai Petani.After that,we visited Nurul Watiqoh at Merbuk but at that time,she did not stay at her house so,we going to the Lembah Bujang Archaelogy center at Merbuk area while waiting for Lembah Bujang,Shahidah and i having show two couple date and do their 'fobidden project' at the close area.i think,they did'nt have the compassion to their owm self because it is not the good things to proof their chaste of love.

third Hari Raya,we celebrates opik's birthday and also make an open house.we prepare certain type of food such as Asam Laksa,Mee Goreng,Ketupat,Rendang,Kuih Raya and also the famous food of Sabah,Nasi Kuning.the ceremony start at 11 am until 4 pm.the guest comes and go.the condition is became more pleasant.

Hari Raya in this year was give me much of experience as a someone who study far from their family.even sometimes we are feeling sad because can't celebrates it with we own family and we own way,we must remember that there,have certain community who cannot celebrates Hari Raya comfortly like,always be grateful with our creator,Allah Swt who always give us much of enjoyment of life

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

NOW,i am stay alone at open lab,Ktd.actually i want to calm down my feeling.tomorrow i don't have any test like,i am feel so alone and i want to cry but i don't know why i must i sad?why?i think just because Raya will coming on this week...hehe...that is the simple reason for me.

Raya will coming and i am not feeling well.boring...i am feel so lonely.last night i try to call my mum but something was happen and i can't talk with my mum like sad..actually,i don't know what i want to write here.i just want to avoid myself with my other friends bacause i know,they still talking about Raya like last night..we are don't understand what are i(and other 'budak sabah') feel.they just can see and say "la..caml down la..lama2 besa la tu..skg kan baru sem 1"

About the latest post in this blog,i was prepare many things to write here but still in Bahasa Malaysia...i am not expert on english language(but i like it) and that's why i wrote my post on BM first besides i want to make sure that my post is have quality and can give the benefit for anyone who read it and not just because of 'someone need me to do that.....(hahaha)'

Ok,now i want go to the musalla.Asar will coming..i will go back to the hostel at 4.30 PM...InsyaALLAH...

............Forgive me because i wrote something that.....(erm..merapu-rapu)..

~REMINDER : DON'T DO SOMETHING FOR NOTHING..(but i think i do it now...)

Friday, September 11, 2009

Don't Judge A Book By It's Cover

Programming Methodologi
Puan Faznita

"Aisyah,can you smile?" "yes,Afiqah.why do you ask?"

"haha...why do you don't like to smile?"

"every day i smile smile and laugh with you"i am said.confused.

"i mean,you seldom to smile and make you face pleasant.huhu..."

"do you want me to smile all the time like an insane?"

"you know aisyah,sometimes when people see you,they don't know what do you think about them.sometimes,i see you like hate anyone"


"because you dont like to smile and make you face more pleasant"

"hi..thanks afiqah,I love you...i will try to change myself about it,ok"

(actually i am already know about it and you is not the first person who tell me about it)

*lecturer coming....


Room A14
Asrama Siswi
Taman Tanjung Chat


"Aisyah,what do you not satisfied with me?"asked my senior.she's my roommate

"why did you ask like that to me?"

"because you can laugh with anyone in our close to them but with me,you always show that you don't like me do you hate me?"she asked.

"sis,can you don't judge a book By it's cover?i am not always stay in our room.everyday i will go back here from college on late evening and you also always stay in your friend's room"i am said

"but why do you not smile to me when you see me at college and or anywhere?"

"sis.actually i do like that not with you only but with anyone also.please forgive me.i am a someone who seldom to smile."


'Asslamualaikum,sis. kaifa haluki?asywaqtu fi kum'
(how are you?I miss you)

'Waalaikumussalam wbt.ana bi khair.Alhamdulillah wa nti?'
(I'm fine.Praise to Allah.How about you?

'wa ana aidhan'
(me too)


this is the message from my senior at im in primary school.know,she's in form5. suddenly i am remember when the
first time she knowing me.Actually she don.t like me very much because i was fine her when she are not going to the
Musalla.besides,i am not close with my senior and i also seldom to smile until one day,when i am be her
Naqibah(leader on islamic group) in Usrah(group to share and discuss about a member problem and Islam)...

"sis,i am

never think that you are like that"

i am just smile and said

"one advise for you,my dear...Don't Judge A Book By it's


I am always thinking about why do people like to judge a book By it's cover?they like to make a conclusion before
make an observation first.Are this is an our Fitrah?i also ever think like that about a something or someone that i see
but l always try and try to not doing like that anymore because i think,when we judge a book By its cover,we have a
potential to find the bad attitude of someone and it is the same like Hus Al- Zhan(bad guess) about them and the Hus
Al-Zhan is not good for our Health of Faith i was through many condition that change my perception about anything
around me and Sometimes,something that we think is black are white and something that we think is white are black

so,thinking hardly about it...

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

do you think about it?

My main purpose to write on this blog is to remind myself and also for everyone who willing to read it about realiti of our life as a slave of Allah SWT.

I am not a someone that expert on this field,I am not a someone that clear from the sin,but i just a someone that try and try to get redha and Heaven of Allah SWT and to be a someone that can remind anyone about the realiti of our life.

when we discuss about that,someone will make a question,"why Allah choose me to live on this world?better I am not choosen because live on this world have so much of challenge and after we die,we are not confirm to go to His Heaven".this is the question who asked by someone that don't know about the realiti of our life.Actually,Allah creat us from the something that nothing is to give the Heaven for us...the Heaven that full of enjoyable but to get it,we must live as a slave of Allah SWT on this world first.Allah SWT is our creator so that's why only the rule from Him that suitable for us.

Actually,the rule that create by Allah SWT is not to encumber His slave but as a sign of His love to us.for example,Islam oblige us to perfom a Soleh five times every day but certain of a follower of Islam accept it as a burden but actually,when we investigate,the solah is good for our healty especially when we perfom it in pilgrim because it can balance our positive and negative charge of body.besides,the obligation to cover the 'Aurat for women is not to burdeb then but to protect their honour from impure.

although we are understand about all that i was said recently,certain of us still assume that the obligation from Allah SWT is burden us.why we are still thinking like that?are we aware the Heaven that He was promise to us is not value compare to our sacrifice from Him.Our sacrifice on doing the obligation,our sacrifice to find His 'redha and our sacrifice to be a real mu'min is so not sacrifice compare to the Heaven that He was promise to us,to His slave who always have faith on Him...

the world is not a field for us to play,to make a something that we like but the world is the field that full of challenge that demand us to gather much of regard from Him but like what that i am said recently,our sacrifice to get it is so not value compare to His promise.for example,we just sacrifice 30-40 years only to make Him accept us to go to His Heaven but the Heaven that He promise to us is infinite...without an expired date.If we get it,we will there for forever and never end!we will never die forever!
from here,we can see all the big different about our sacrifice compare with the present from Him...

so,think hardly about it!!!

.......only ALLAH SWT that eligible to be worship.......

Monday, August 31, 2009

Last Breath
Album : Hafiz Hamidun

Munsyid : Hafiz Hamidun

From those around I hear a cry
A muffled sob,
a hopeless sigh
I hear their footsteps
leaving slow
And then I know
my soul must fly

A chilly wind begins to blow
Within my soul from head to toe
And then last breath escapes my lips
It's time to leave and I must go

So it is true but it's too late
They said each soul has its given date
When it must leave it's body's core
And meet with it's eternal fate

Allahurabbuna salimna

mark the words that I do say
Who knows tomorrow could be your day
At last it comes to heaven or hell
Decide which now do not delay

I cannot see,
my eyes are blind
Am I still me ?
Or has my soul been led astray ?
And forced to pay a priceless fee
Alas to dust we all return
Some shall rejoice while others burned
If only I knew
I knew it before
The line grew short
And came my turn

And now as beneath the sod
They lay me with my record flawed
They cry not knowing I cry worse
For they go home
I face my God


Come on my brother,
lets pray decide
Which now do not delay

Saturday, August 29, 2009



Everyday,when i woke up from the bed,i always think that i am is belong's to ALLAH SWT.Everything that i see.i hear,i touch,i do and i think will will be ask on the next world.i am aware all of that but i also always make a sin.why?...

why i am be like that?

i am confess that i am is a slave of ALLAH swt but sometimes,something that i do cause i feel i am become so far from HIM...

sometimes i will cry...i cry because i am confuse that what happen to me.i like a someone that wait for a something but i don't know what that i am waiting for.

sometimes,i feel that the time for me to pass away is become so close but when i am laugh with my friend,the death is like will not happen!

why i am feel like that?

sometimes my heart will be keep changing and my faith will up and down but i am always confident that i am is ALLAH's mine and i am so afraid when thinking about it...

I am attemp hardy to make HIM forgive all of my sin and i work hardly to give all of my love to HIM.

I love HIM so much and nothing will replace HIM on my heart forever...