Friday, November 20, 2009

This evening...One semester

Ezati

This is a sad story of me...when someone that i know very well,even just for are bit time but it was made me sad...so sad

4.12 pm,a bit time ago...at friday,20 november 2008

me,kak fieza,kak nusaibah,rosni,nabihah,khamsiah and iza accompany ezati when waiting for her parents.she will go back to kedah and will not come here again.she will regester to study at the other college...

It was made us so sad...when she say "good bye..."a bit time ago...
my tears come out..immediately
and i saw kak fieza,iza,rosni...my lovely roomate they also...
...cry with me...hehe

Ezati,hope you will get something better in anything that you do after that..indeed we all love you...UHIBBUKI FILLAH

That's a foods while celebrated the 'jamuan perpisahan' for ezati



ONE SEMESTER AT COLLEGE TECHNOLOGY OF DARULNAIM...

what was i got here?
as a student...
as a daughter...
as a slave of Allah...

I got a new friends...
New experience...
New life...
and everything new in my life...
all of those cause me change...
a big change...
Alhamdulillah...
indeed,He was gave me the best for my life...


'eid celebration at medan taqafi,KTD



pck lee...driver bus of KTD

pck man...ex-driver bus of KTD

lecturer and student KTD

hm...delicious


my roomate ...

my roomete...my friends...

hm...study week begin from today...at 1.12.2009 we will take final examination and maybe that's my last post until break semester...
hm...break semester?i'm sure that i will be the 'penggosok baju yang setia' for my sister...hahaha
(I will stay with her and she will work for every day and i'm very very very very sure that i will bored stay alone at home)..haha


Saturday, November 14, 2009

THE ENJOYABLE TEST FROM ALLAH

When some of your teacher angry to you or make you stress, what do you feel? do you feel angry? sad, or hate. I am sure that you answer is yes but actually ,you should be happy when your teacher angry to you because it’s are sign that her still take care about you. why I’m saying like that? because, if she didn’t take care about you, she will not do anything that can cause you feel something.

Actually, what I’ve said recently is have a close relationship with the test that given by Allah Swt. In our daily life, we have many problem that sometimes we cannot solve it clearly. At this point, we will think that “why He give this test to me? did he hates me?”…my answer is no! because he will not hate anything that He was created, He is Ar Rahman and Ar Rahim. Indeed, everything that He given to us are sign of His love either that’s a test or enjoyable.

In Quran, Allah Swt was said

“Allah will not give the test to His slave outside of their ability”
(Al-Baqarah , 2 ; 284)

Here, we can understand that Allah Swt will not give any test to His slave outside of their ability and actually, all of the test that He gives to us is to escalate our stage inside beside Him and also to wipe out our smalls sin.

When we refer to the history of ulama’,we will found that they will feeling sad if Allah didn’t give them some of test because in their opinion, if Allah not give them some of test, that’s are sign that He was forget them. read this sentence clearly

“do you think that you will enter the heaven if you was not get the test like was given to the people before you?”
(Al-Baqarah. 2 ; 214 )

From this sentences, we can make the conclusion that we will not enter to the heaven that He promised to us if we never get the test from Him. The test that given by Him is not only comes in the worst thing such as destitution, sickness, and others but also it’s can come by something sick as the wealthy, pulchritude healthy and others. So, always take care about anything that He gives us because actually, all of that is the test to see how much our belief, our faith and our confidence toHim.

Now, when you get some of test that you think we cannot solve it, what should you do? cry? Wail? scream? Suicide? Or go out from Islam ? no ! don’t doing like that because if you do like that, it will not solve your problem but will enhance you problem in the next world and also will make a new problem to anyone around you. so, if you got some of test, you must

1. BE PATIENT

You should be patient in all the time even we know that it’s so difficult to be patient in all time but remember, all of the test that we got now is so not value compare to the tests that given by Allah swt to His lover, Muhammad Saw. Even Muhammad Saw is the messenger of Allah, he was got much of test that if its given to us, we will not able to solve it. so always think about this.


2. PRAY TO HIM

When you got some of test from Him, maybe it’s are sign that you was do something that can destroy your relationship with Him so, always pray with Him and ask His willing for our life.

“And when my slave asking to you ( Muhammad ) about me, indeed I’m very close. I give the request by someone that pray when they pray to me” (Al- Baqarah,2 ; 218 )

“And ask to Allah with patient and pray. Indeed, all of these are difficult except to anyone that focus”
(Al-Baqarah.2 ; 45)

3. CONFIDENT

After you are be patient and pray to Him, the other important thing that you must do is are confident.ypu must be confident in everything that you have asked to Him because if you do that, it’s are sign that you just put your hope to Him and also are sign that you always be a good thinking about Him

“… Remember, indeed the help of God is so close”
(Al-Baqarah,2 ; 214 )

We was know what should we do when we get some of test from Allah so now, change yourself and opinion about anything that you get from Him because maybe that’s a test from Him. We must remember that Allah knows everything about us.

“… If you hide anything in your heart of you represent it, Allah will know about it…”
(Ali Imran,3 ; 53 )


THE STREAK BY SOMEONE THAT LONGING TO HER CREATOR

If you love Allah, He will love you too
And peoples also will love you and fine with you
But,
If you hate Him, or feeling nothing about Him
You will not increase or decrease His power
Because,
He never need you
But actually you need Him in all the times
Islam also never need you
But actually you need Islam for your better life here, and there
If you chase the world
The next world will run far away from you
In contrast,
If you chase the next world
The world also will walk together beside you
Indeed ,
The world is nothing
But the next world is everything
Always keep yourself in mode zikrullah wa zikrulmaut
(remember Allah and remember about death in all time)
He know much about you
So make sure that you always try to know much about Him
You live here not just as an human
But also as a servant
And as a slave of Him
So that, always be aware
about your responsibility here
You live here is not just for now,
but also for later
not just for here
but also for there
not just your yourself
but also for the creator of yourself
Put Him in front in anything that you do !




Wednesday, November 11, 2009

THE SIMPLE PURPOSE-FROM ME

Honestly,I didn't have a time to do this (create new post)... moreover the final examination is become so close...but when i remember that everyone have 24 hours per day,why should i think like that?

hm...

sometimes,i think that i didn't want to update my blog anymore but when i remember that this is not just an aSsingment but also the trust from Allah..(Amanah dari Allah)...

i'm never accept this as an assigment but i think that's a some field to spread something... so my purpose here to spread anything about the truth..about the reality of us as a slave...as a muslim...as a mu'min...(even my post here is not so good)

Hope He accept anything that we do as an Ibadah...

InsyaAllah...

My Rabb has commad me to do nine things :

1.to be sincere at all times,in my exterior and interior,overthly and inside,privately and public.

2.to observe justice in All times.in agreeable or disagreeable times,in happiness and in anger

3.to take the middle path wherever i am very poor or exteremely wealthy

4.to forgive the person who opress me

5.to connect with the person who cut his relationship with me

6.to give to the one who does nit give me

7.to my conversation to be the zikr of Allah

8.to make my silence to be that contemplation and reflection

9.to make my glance to be an ibrah(taking lesson from what i see)

I must strive to attain such this character so that i can enjoin good and forbid evil effectively..

INSYAALLAH...


Saturday, October 24, 2009

DEATH : DO NO DELAY




when my heart talking...

myself...

do you ever think,how if tomorrow you die?are you sure that ALLAH will accept all of the kindliness that you have done?sometimes,you like to delay anything with some or no reason and the bad things that you like to do is delay your pray.

myself...

even you can delay anything that you want,but there's something that you cannot delay forever.that is a your death-YOUR DEATH

so now,do you ever thing,how if tomorrow you die?
when your soul was fly,how about your life in the grave worlds?
do you sure that ALLAH will accept you to enter to HIS heaven?
do you sure that HE will not put you into the hell?

myself...

seometimes,when you do some kindliness,you very sure that Allah will accept it
and now,please don't think like that anymore!
because,maybe HE not accept any kindliness that you have done even a bit...if you do something just because of anyhing except HIM

myself...

sometimes,if people said that you are fool,you will angry but actually
you not use all of your mind to think about HIM,to think about HIS love and o think about YOUR DEATH

myself...

sometimes,if people said that you are deaf,you will angry but actually,
you not use all of your hearing to heard the power of HIS power,about the heaven and the hell that he promised to us,the feebles creature...

myself...

sometimes,if people said that you are blind,you will angry but actually,
you not use all of your eyes to see the reality of life,to see your life in the future...in the next world...

so now,myself...

how if tomorrow you die?
do you think that you can delay you death such as anything that you was delay before?
have you do your best while you do an obligation with HIM?
have you do anything in your life just because of HIM?
have you do anything in you life with the name of HIM?
do you aware about all of that?

indeed.
death is do no delay...
your death is do no delay...
our death is do no delay...
even a half of second !

so myself...
always take care about you faith
keep HIS name in your heart anywhere...anytime
because you don't know,when are the time of you to die..

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

S O M E O N E



someone was born
from nothing to something

someone was chosen

to live there,

in this worldly world

someone have a
mind to think,

eyes to see,

ear to heard,
and heart to feel


since young,

someone learn much from her experience...
she see the world with her own perspective

someone always think that

she's not are perfect
and will not be perfect
because nothing is perfect
except Allah,our creator

someone always find something
and the something is the willing from her creator


someone always see the world is nothing
but the next world is everything

but sometimes,
someone will confused about the world...
because,

something that we see is is good,

not surely good
and something that we see is bad,

not surely bad

so now...
how to live there?







Saturday, October 17, 2009

TO CHANGE-it's up to you

TO CHANGE – IT’S UP TO YOU

No one born in this world perfectly, no one live in this world perfectly, no one can do anything perfectly and no one better in anything. however, we must bring our self to make something perfectly especially in our relation with Allah Swt, our creator.

How to do that?

At this point, we know that we need to change our self, our attitude, our opinion and other to become perfect but the change is up to our self. why I am said like that? because no one can change our self except we change it by we own self. people just can advice us, or giving their opinion but the decision to change is up to we own self.

In islam, we have many change that occur to our self since we were in the soul world until we die. before we born, we start from nutfah and change to be an alaqoh before going to be a mudghah.in science,we change from zygote to the morula,from morula to blastocyst and from blastocyst to embryo.

After we born,we still change and alter from baby to the child,from child to the teenager,from teenager to adults and lastly we will going to be an old people before we are die and in the same times,the condition around us is also change.

In our life,we have many things that we never know,

We have many things that we never think,

We have many things that we never do,

And we also have many things that we never try to do.

If there’s a something that can give us benefit,

Can give us the reward from HIM,

Can give us the willing from HIM…

…We need to change our self know about it,

…….to think about it,

………to do it

……….and try to do it

All of that is need us to change our self,

And only our self can change it,

No one can do it for us…

No one can…

…no one can

….and once again,no one can…

…to change our self

If before you are someone lazy,

You must change yourself to be someone hard-working…

If before you never know much about Islam,

You must change yourself to know much about it

…..because it is your way of life

If before you never do some of sunnah Rasulullah.

You must change yourself to do that

……because it is can close your relationship with HIM and HIS Messenger

*CHANGE YOURSELF TO BE BETTER*

إِنَّ اللّهَ لاَ يُغَيِّرُ مَا بِقَوْمٍ حَتَّى يُغَيِّرُواْ مَا بِأَنْفُسِهِمْ

"...Verily, Allâh does not change the condition of a people until they (first) change their ways and their minds. ..."

( Ar-Ra’d, 13 ; 11 )

JUST ACCEPT AND WAIT

JUST ACCEPT AND WAIT

Everything that Allah gives you-accept it with full of your willing. Even sometimes, that is something that you don’t like, just accept it with full of your will…

…because why?

……because Allah loves you.He know what is the best for you more than you know about it.

وَهُوَ كُرْهٌ لَّكُمْ وَعَسَى أَن تَكْرَهُواْ شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَّكُمْ وَعَسَى أَن تُحِبُّواْ شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَّكُمْ وَاللّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنتُمْ لاَ تَعْلَمُونَ ﴿٢١٦﴾


"...though it is hard for you. But it may be that a thing is hard upon you though it is (really) good for you, and it may be that you love a thing while it is bad for you. Allâh knows (all things) while you do not know."

(Al Baqarah,2 ; 216 )

In our life,we just can plan something but Allah will decide it for us because HE always know what is the best for us.

In my life, I have many things that I was plan to do.I was plan to take a Syariah Course at other college but finally,He put me here in Science Computer-Multimedia course.something that I never think to do in my life but I just accept it and wait.wait for anything that He plan to me for my future even sometimes I feel so hard to stand in this field.

Here,he put me together with someone ‘hyperactive roommate’.first time I meet her,I can’t accept her because of her attitude.she’s not bad but her attitude is like an hyperactive children.someday, I think hardly,why Allah choose me to stay here,in my room,with her.my hyperactive roommate?

I find He sign of love in Quran and I found something in Surah AL-Mu’minun, 23 ; 115

أَفَحَسِبْتُمْ أَنَّمَا خَلَقْنَاكُمْ عَبَثًا

"`Did you then think that We had created you without purpose..."

Here I think,Allah will not create anything without any aim,without any purpose and without any reason. Everything that He create is have their own advantage,have their own reason and that’s also same like my hyperactive roomate.Allah was create her,put her together with me in the same room with some reason and some purpose that I am never feel and see right now but I am sure that one fine day later,I will know about it.

Every day,I try to close myself with her. I try to understand her and finally I found something. She have a pure in heart and she have a big sensitivity about Islam.one day, I got some advice from her

“Aisyah,don’t you say something that you never do because it is can broke your relationship with Him and can give you the sin”

Thanks Allah,you was give me someone that can remind me about it.

Here,I also made with new friend ; samirah,afiqah and mardhiah.one day,I think that why Allah choose them asa my friend here?first,because they is my classmate.second. I think Allah want they to be something that can improve myself.

One day,I was got a negative comment from them…

Samirah :

“you is so shceme”

“sometimes you want us to follow what that you want”

Afiqah :

“you are seldom to smile”

“you like to invite me study when I am don’t have any mood to study.huhu”

Mardhiah :

“sometimes,you like shceme”

I accept all of their comment and I change it to positive.am I shceme?oh no!...if I am shceme since in my primary school,maybe I will not here. I just change my self to be someone like shceme(because I don’t want to continue my bad attitude in my primary school-we need to change,right*)…

everyday, I will invite them to coming to the class before lecturer coming and I also always invite them to be the first in everything.samirah says that sometimes I want them follow anything that I want but actually I just give my opinion and all of that is up to them either they want to accept or not.

Afiqah says that I am seldom to smile.hahaha…so funny.InsyaAllah I will change it ( but should we smile along the time?should we smile to the guy?that not our mahram?*let’s think about it)

In our life,we need to think about anything done around us and we need to change to be better than now.we need to remember that Allah will not do something for nothing. Everything that He do for us,for our life,and for anything around us is have their own purpose and their own reason.

Once again remember,Allah know ourself more than we know about our self.He always know which one is better for us.in fact,He is so close to us so,TRY TO KNOW MUCH ABOUT HIM

NO LOVE is BETTER THAN HIS LOVE for US

*so,thinking hardly about it*

Saturday, September 26, 2009


:::RAYA COMES AGAIN:::


Hari Raya comes again.Muslimin and Muslimah celebrate it with enjoyable and grateful to Allah Swt after finish one mont of fasting.in this year,i am celebrate Hari Raya at my cousin's house,not like the others year,i am ccelebrate it with my parents,family and friends at my own village.

19 september 2009,friday-shahidah and i go to Butteworth by bus at 9.00 am and arrive there at 4.00 pm. there,my sister,my cousin and her husband waiting for us.from there,we are going to the their house at Kulim,Kedah-1 and half hour from butteworth.there,shahidah and i meet with my cousin's sons at the first time.Mohamad Ahnaf Taqiudin(Udin)-11,Mohamad Ahnaf Tarmizi(Izi)-10 and Mohamad Ahnaf Taufiq(Opik)-8. they is a very sweet nephew.

First day Hari Raya,i woke up from my bed after heard the crying voices from my sister.she calling our mother and crying.i am laugh because i don't have not any feeling to cry even now is Hari Raya.After pray Subuh,i iron all the Baju Raya of anyone on this house.usually,in the others year of Hari Raya,i will iron all the Baju Raya of my parents and sibling at malam takbir but i am feel so tired last night so that,i just do my usual work at morning Hari Raya.After pray Hari Raya,we visited my cousin's husband family at the same village.i am feel so happy because i am not ever feel the condition living in the village.in sabah,i am not stay at village so that i don't know the best feeling living at the place like that.

second Hari Raya,we visited the Assistant Manager of my cousin at Kg.Bukit Meriam,Sungai Petani.After that,we visited Nurul Watiqoh at Merbuk but at that time,she did not stay at her house so,we going to the Lembah Bujang Archaelogy center at Merbuk area while waiting for Watiqoh.at Lembah Bujang,Shahidah and i having show two couple date and do their 'fobidden project' at the close area.i think,they did'nt have the compassion to their owm self because it is not the good things to proof their chaste of love.

third Hari Raya,we celebrates opik's birthday and also make an open house.we prepare certain type of food such as Asam Laksa,Mee Goreng,Ketupat,Rendang,Kuih Raya and also the famous food of Sabah,Nasi Kuning.the ceremony start at 11 am until 4 pm.the guest comes and go.the condition is became more pleasant.

Hari Raya in this year was give me much of experience as a someone who study far from their family.even sometimes we are feeling sad because can't celebrates it with we own family and we own way,we must remember that there,have certain community who cannot celebrates Hari Raya comfortly like us.so,always be grateful with our creator,Allah Swt who always give us much of enjoyment of life

Saturday, August 29, 2009

ALLAH...NeVeR Be RePLaCe

OnLy HIM



Everyday,when i woke up from the bed,i always think that i am is belong's to ALLAH SWT.Everything that i see.i hear,i touch,i do and i think will will be ask on the next world.i am aware all of that but i also always make a sin.why?...

why i am be like that?

i am confess that i am is a slave of ALLAH swt but sometimes,something that i do cause i feel i am become so far from HIM...


sometimes i will cry...i cry because i am confuse that what happen to me.i like a someone that wait for a something but i don't know what that i am waiting for.


sometimes,i feel that the time for me to pass away is become so close but when i am laugh with my friend,the death is like nothing..like will not happen!

why i am feel like that?

sometimes my heart will be keep changing and my faith will up and down but i am always confident that i am is ALLAH's mine and i am so afraid when thinking about it...


I am attemp hardy to make HIM forgive all of my sin and i work hardly to give all of my love to HIM.

I love HIM so much and nothing will replace HIM on my heart forever...