O Allah..please give me the strenght here
feel so lonely..
Today is a very bad day for me..
I was here for the rest two semester and along that time,i’m never cry..i’m never feeling like that even i’m not going back to my village in the last semester.sometimes i’ll ask myself “why i’m never cry and miss my village so much..?even in ‘eid celebration,i just feeling nothing and laugh when i’m seeing my sister’s cry..
Before that i’m just laught when samirah criying in front of me and says “aisyah..aku nak balik sabah..rindunya ngan diaorang,mcm menarik-narik jangtungku dah ni..”
And when my friends ask me “eh orang sana,bila nak balik..tak rindu kampung ke..?
I just says “t aku balik ar..tapi kalau sal rindu-rindu ni takde lagi la.nangis pun tak.haha”
“ko memang..dari dulu sampai sekarag tak pernah berubah-ubah,kan..hati kering..”
I think not because i’m not a ‘hati kering’ but i just a someone that hard to exspress her feeling.so that i’m never miss my village and everything there until i’m crying..and usually i just says “ye mak..rindu gak..eh,tak tau la..” when my mom aks me about that..
So hurt...this feeling made me cry till i can’t cry anymore...
This feeling is made me suck till i can’ think clearly..
First time..haha, so sad..i don’t like feeling such this feeling...
Argh..so hurt.. =(
I’m feeling like that when i heard this song repeatly
found this video here
i want go back now..
i miss everything there...
this feeling is so hart...so sick... =(