OnLy HIM

Everyday,when i woke up from the bed,i always think that i am is belong's to ALLAH SWT.Everything that i see.i hear,i touch,i do and i think will will be ask on the next world.i am aware all of that but i also always make a sin.why?...
why i am be like that?

i am confess that i am is a slave of ALLAH swt but sometimes,something that i do cause i feel i am become so far from HIM...

sometimes i will cry...i cry because i am confuse that what happen to me.i like a someone that wait for a something but i don't know what that i am waiting for.

sometimes,i feel that the time for me to pass away is become so close but when i am laugh with my friend,the death is like nothing..like will not happen!
why i am feel like that?

sometimes my heart will be keep changing and my faith will up and down but i am always confident that i am is ALLAH's mine and i am so afraid when thinking about it...

I am attemp hardy to make HIM forgive all of my sin and i work hardly to give all of my love to HIM.
I love HIM so much and nothing will replace HIM on my heart forever...